I'm not playing therapist with you. It isn't my job, and I lack the empathetic capacity to actually help, I feel. What I am wondering is why you insist on hurting yourself or getting into trouble whenever something big occurs. I'm likely not the only person that's noticed, too.
It's not that I'm trying to get hurt, I just... have bad luck.
[And then stops short. His back remains to Gnosis, but at least he isn't going anywhere.]
When things go wrong... I run. That's all I've done, all my life. Bounty hunter finds me in a town and the whole place turns against me? Start running. Plant gets stolen and my face looks like my brother's? Better hit the dirt.
Even if I can't run as far here it's... familiar. So when something bad happens, I just take off. Then it's just a matter of time before I find myself in places where I shouldn't be. I don't back down when I should, then.
...did you run off when you were talking to Wolfwood?
[He is Connecting the two dots.]
Because, if so, I'm going to be bluntly honest: You cannot do that when it comes to personal relationships. Not friendships, and especially not romances. You can mention that you need space to think and that you'll be back later, and if that's what happened, then ignore me being suspicious of you as you stand up and try to run from me as well — but getting angry and storming off is emotionally worse for everyone involved.
No, not really. Something a little more direct and less... mm, passive-aggressive, perhaps, would have been fine. "I need some space to clear my head", for example. Give him time to respond as well.
I know I should have. But all I could think was - [He sucks in a heavy breath.] I just kept thinking about all those people. And I couldn't process anything else. Not really an excuse. Just... is.
I understand. I often get like that too. I had to learn the hard way not to get so in my own head about things.
[But this isn't about him, so he just shakes his head.]
When I say you're a good person, Vash, it's this side of your personality that I mean. Someone who thinks like that and sees red when innocent people die isn't someone evil like you think you are.
Even if I am good... [Which he doubts, but we've covered this extensively.] Good people can do bad things.
[But they're going in circles, and Vash is exhausted. He doesn't want to talk anymore.]
Look in any case I've... probably worn out my welcome. And I need to get some work done before I get too caught up. Promised I'd bring supplies back to the Lighthouse. [A pause.] Thanks for listening to me, though. And... helping where I let you.
[Ah... the line of his shoulders goes rigid as he reaches the doorway. He can't will himself to look back once more, so instead he simply... gives a halfhearted shrug.]
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I'm not playing therapist with you. It isn't my job, and I lack the empathetic capacity to actually help, I feel. What I am wondering is why you insist on hurting yourself or getting into trouble whenever something big occurs. I'm likely not the only person that's noticed, too.
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[And then stops short. His back remains to Gnosis, but at least he isn't going anywhere.]
When things go wrong... I run. That's all I've done, all my life. Bounty hunter finds me in a town and the whole place turns against me? Start running. Plant gets stolen and my face looks like my brother's? Better hit the dirt.
Even if I can't run as far here it's... familiar. So when something bad happens, I just take off. Then it's just a matter of time before I find myself in places where I shouldn't be. I don't back down when I should, then.
Bang!
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[He is Connecting the two dots.]
Because, if so, I'm going to be bluntly honest: You cannot do that when it comes to personal relationships. Not friendships, and especially not romances. You can mention that you need space to think and that you'll be back later, and if that's what happened, then ignore me being suspicious of you as you stand up and try to run from me as well — but getting angry and storming off is emotionally worse for everyone involved.
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I... sort of said I needed space. More that I just. Couldn't be there. And didn't give him time to respond.
Does that count?
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[But this isn't about him, so he just shakes his head.]
When I say you're a good person, Vash, it's this side of your personality that I mean. Someone who thinks like that and sees red when innocent people die isn't someone evil like you think you are.
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[But they're going in circles, and Vash is exhausted. He doesn't want to talk anymore.]
Look in any case I've... probably worn out my welcome. And I need to get some work done before I get too caught up. Promised I'd bring supplies back to the Lighthouse. [A pause.] Thanks for listening to me, though. And... helping where I let you.
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[...]
Be careful when you go. And please... do not make me have to recite the prayer I did for your brother for you, too.
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I'll do what I can, at least.
[He doesn't linger beyond this.]