Sesa immediately sets up a little straighter, feeling an unpleasant sensation stirring in the pit of his stomach as Gnosis begins to explain...his parents, and the fact they were clearly shitty. Great!! Not being physically abusive is one thing, great, we love to see it, but that...does not excuse being emotionally neglectful either. Sesa in particular has strong feelings about it, given the fact he remembers how close and happy he was with his brother. He can't imagine not being cared for deeply.
He knows Gnosis isn't seeking pity, or an apology on behalf of folks he suspects are long dead even in the present day. He's simply telling him the way things are.]
I am unsure if it helps at all, but...it's hard for me to say if they were that way in your past life. It seems more likely that they weren't so distant.
[Though, is it better knowing the life you can't remember was potentially a better one?]
Right. That's what bothers me about this entire thing, if I'm honest. I prefer the world where they were closed off to me. It's more comfortable for me to think about never being truly known by them, than to have been loved by people I hardly know.
[Okay, wow, go to therapy? Go to therapy.]
Though, I appreciate that you did find all of that out, and that you drew the same conclusion I was drawing. At least there's closure to that particular thread.
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Sesa immediately sets up a little straighter, feeling an unpleasant sensation stirring in the pit of his stomach as Gnosis begins to explain...his parents, and the fact they were clearly shitty. Great!! Not being physically abusive is one thing, great, we love to see it, but that...does not excuse being emotionally neglectful either. Sesa in particular has strong feelings about it, given the fact he remembers how close and happy he was with his brother. He can't imagine not being cared for deeply.
He knows Gnosis isn't seeking pity, or an apology on behalf of folks he suspects are long dead even in the present day. He's simply telling him the way things are.]
I am unsure if it helps at all, but...it's hard for me to say if they were that way in your past life. It seems more likely that they weren't so distant.
[Though, is it better knowing the life you can't remember was potentially a better one?]
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[Okay, wow, go to therapy? Go to therapy.]
Though, I appreciate that you did find all of that out, and that you drew the same conclusion I was drawing. At least there's closure to that particular thread.
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I think I understand. There's something cruel about it, knowing...the way things could have been.
[Granted, the lives they lived here were no less real, they just...have no attachment to them. They don't remember them.]
Mm. Would...you like me to do anything else, there? Or...would you say it's best left alone, now.
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[Sighs. Pours tea... hands Sesa his tea. There's a little bit of steamed milk in there.]
Thank you, Sesa. It's nice to get these things off my chest.
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[The tea is nice. Comforting. He'll sip at it even though it's scorching, he's Vouivre this is merely tepid to him.]
To be honest, I'm not sure what I went there looking for. I thought I might find something, I just...didn't expect it to be that.