…I don't intend to try and control his emotions or anything, but, I… I just don't want him to feel betrayed or sad or upset or anything like that. He shouldn't be unhappy at all, especially not because of me. That's the very last thing I want from… well, anyone. I never want to be a source of unhappiness…
[ This month has been really rough on the jellyfish for that reason. ]
Is there anything I can say or do that might alleviate his heartache if it comes to it, even just a little?
["Him", hm... Gnosis is taking notes mentally, remaining completely stoic otherwise. It's not that he's interested in drama buuuuuuuuut... he's also quite used to having eyes and ears everywhere, so is it really that surprising when he starts treating this as something of a spectacle?]
I suppose that would depend on what the source of the heartache is. Without the proper context, I would say that a heartfelt apology, [you know, the thing he tried to give to Monch that didn't work at all,] should reasonably be enough.
[Gnosis shakes his head, though; he sees right through some parts of Mizuki's words. Most notably:]
Respectfully, Mizuki, to say you don't intend to control his emotions and then follow it up with "I don't want him to feel this and that" tells me that you are, perhaps even unconsciously, trying to control the outcome. It's a natural psychological defense, though I'm sure you know more on the topic than I do. Seeking to alleviate a source of distress for someone is a fair action, and I would call it noble, were it not rooted in the fear you seem to have of being rejected.
All you can do is explain yourself and apologise properly, and accept the end results.
Mmh… I was refraining from the details because I didn’t think that would be relevant. But I suppose you have a point. [ He really didn’t want to tell Gnosis because he already feels like he’s bugging him, but… ]
I kissed Elsword.
[ He can at least be blunt and to the point enough about it that maybe it won't be a whole thing, maybe. Quickly onto the next point: ]
I know it's… contradictory to say that. Making people feel anything is only something gods do, anyway. I wouldn't want to do that, but people being happy is… nice, right? Bringing up things that only will bring people upset is… bad.
...yes, I suppose that would qualify me as something of an expert. Ahem— my relationship with Enciodes is not what one might consider "standard" by any means.
Well, of course it's not. [ Resident stalker ambusher knows too much about the RI Operator's business, more at eleven. ] But it's in at least a similar vein, right? Like, you'd be mad if someone else, even a friend, kissed Mister SilverAsh, right?
[His headfeathers ruffle; he wastes no time in flattening them with his hand. Clearing his throat again...]
I suppose so. [@ Doctor he's coming for you later mark his words.] I tend not to put too much stock into the idea, considering...
["He and Enciodes literally cannot stand to be apart from each other" ...........no they can talk about this later, he is Yet Again going to cough into his hand, someone help him he's got something stuck in there. Mizuki doesn't need to know about their vows they took at age ten, it's fine.]
Anyway, this is about you and your mishaps, not my own affairs.
[ Mizuki ever so earnestly nods. ] I know, but… I guess, I trust your words most in a situation like this? Like, if someone had broken your trust like that, is there anything they could say that would help you to forgive them…?
That's merely me personally. I imagine were I given ample time, I might heal from it. You don't know if Add is or isn't like me, however, and he seems like a nice young man— [lmfao] —so he's certainly more liable to forgive a breach of trust. The fact of the matter is, you don't know how someone will react, and you don't know if they will or won't forgive you. The only thing you can do in this circumstance is merely "your best".
[ Mizuki leans back in the seat he was given and just stares at the ceiling. His body goes entirely limp in dejection. If only he could use Originium Arts like the others, maybe he could offer something in turn for forgiveness or… something. Maybe go back in time and stop himself from being so impulsive, or… ]
Okay.
[ He sounds entirely defeated. ]
…Thank you, Mister Gnosis. I'm sorry for bothering you.
It isn't a bother. [These are things he's needed to tell himself, too.] Just remember that Add may need some space, and that's alright. You'll have to let me know if it goes well or otherwise.
...I do hope for the best for you, Mizuki. Sincerely.
[Gnosis when Mizuki comes back a while later like "I'M IN A POLYCULE"... like that is the best outcome isn't it.]
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[ This month has been really rough on the jellyfish for that reason. ]
Is there anything I can say or do that might alleviate his heartache if it comes to it, even just a little?
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I suppose that would depend on what the source of the heartache is. Without the proper context, I would say that a heartfelt apology, [you know, the thing he tried to give to Monch that didn't work at all,] should reasonably be enough.
[Gnosis shakes his head, though; he sees right through some parts of Mizuki's words. Most notably:]
Respectfully, Mizuki, to say you don't intend to control his emotions and then follow it up with "I don't want him to feel this and that" tells me that you are, perhaps even unconsciously, trying to control the outcome. It's a natural psychological defense, though I'm sure you know more on the topic than I do. Seeking to alleviate a source of distress for someone is a fair action, and I would call it noble, were it not rooted in the fear you seem to have of being rejected.
All you can do is explain yourself and apologise properly, and accept the end results.
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I kissed Elsword.
[ He can at least be blunt and to the point enough about it that maybe it won't be a whole thing, maybe. Quickly onto the next point: ]
I know it's… contradictory to say that. Making people feel anything is only something gods do, anyway. I wouldn't want to do that, but people being happy is… nice, right? Bringing up things that only will bring people upset is… bad.
…
I don't understand.
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God these boys just attract problems, don't they. All three of you. Especially that weird Sankta god damn.]
I see. I'm less capable of romantic advice, [dude] but I'll assist where I can.
Disregarding everything else for a moment: would lying to Add sit right with you even if he didn't find out what happened?
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Well, I came to you 'cause you're the only person I know who… has been in a romantic relationship before.
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stalkerambusher knows too much about the RI Operator's business, more at eleven. ] But it's in at least a similar vein, right? Like, you'd be mad if someone else, even a friend, kissed Mister SilverAsh, right?no subject
I suppose so. [@ Doctor he's coming for you later mark his words.] I tend not to put too much stock into the idea, considering...
["He and Enciodes literally cannot stand to be apart from each other" ...........no they can talk about this later, he is Yet Again going to cough into his hand, someone help him he's got something stuck in there. Mizuki doesn't need to know about their vows they took at age ten, it's fine.]
Anyway, this is about you and your mishaps, not my own affairs.
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[lmao what are you expecting Mizuki]
That's merely me personally. I imagine were I given ample time, I might heal from it. You don't know if Add is or isn't like me, however, and he seems like a nice young man— [lmfao] —so he's certainly more liable to forgive a breach of trust. The fact of the matter is, you don't know how someone will react, and you don't know if they will or won't forgive you. The only thing you can do in this circumstance is merely "your best".
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Okay.
[ He sounds entirely defeated. ]
…Thank you, Mister Gnosis. I'm sorry for bothering you.
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...I do hope for the best for you, Mizuki. Sincerely.
[Gnosis when Mizuki comes back a while later like "I'M IN A POLYCULE"... like that is the best outcome isn't it.]
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[ He sets his palms over his eyes before letting out a deep sigh, then he finally sits back upright. ]
Alright, well, if I'm going to do it, I shouldn't let this linger.